How it is possible to be 12 years and to still such a huge sense of loss , ive got of boyfriend's and husband quicker!! These last 2 years have changed me mum and I'm not sure if you proud of me and how I've dealt with it , I always wanted your approval, which was priceless. I needed you so bad these last 2 years mum , I always found comfort in your advice , and just having someone to talk to, ive never felt so unloved and lost, I have promised myself this year is a year for change , I wanna find the old me mum, a happy carefree me.xx I love you so so much , miss you 😘 ❤