How it is possible to be 12 years and to still such a huge sense of loss , ive got of boyfriend's and husband quicker!! These last 2 years have changed me mum and I'm not sure if you proud of me and how I've dealt with it , I always wanted your approval, which was priceless. I needed you so bad these last 2 years mum , I always found comfort in your advice , and just having someone to talk to, ive never felt so unloved and lost, I have promised myself this year is a year for change , I wanna find the old me mum, a happy carefree me.xx I love you so so much , miss you 😘 ❤

I'm gonna be honest here, the last 6 months I've never been more angry about your passing,we really need you, you held us all together, and I'm sure the things that are happening wouldn't be if you were here! Nothing made sense when you went and it's still the same feeling now? When does this change?! I'm sick of the sad memories, I want the good ones back, loving ones,funny ones!!! Oh mum, I just miss ya, even you dodgey legs, and the ugly feet I would rub for you! I miss your hugs, your love, I miss the smell of your hair and perfume you wore.i miss you nagging me to do things I just wasn't ready to do, I am even scared to thing of the things I would trade in to get you back!!!

another year is pasting mum where you are not here with us, taken by the angels to a place of rest. A day doesn't pass where i dont miss u to bits. You where and still are the most amazing woman/mum in my life and i miss u dearly. I want our chats back, i want my mum back, the person who i could talk to if i had a problem, who i really want a hug from. They say time is a healer but for me, it never heals. I'll never stop missing you, being upset, crying until i'm back in your arms, safe and worry free. Love you and miss you dearly from your heartbroken hiccup xxx love you xx matt, oh mum u will b proud, i've downloaded the westlife album, it so reminds me of u in so so many ways and ur smile. Priceless xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx